“I’ve been affected by suicidal thoughts, depression, and extreme anxiety and panic attacks.
It’s never too late to seek help. Don’t be ashamed if you’re feeling stuck in a rut of depression or anything. My advice is to try to be as kind to yourself, talk to someone, get help.
Last Christmas I went out, I looked terrible and hated myself, I’ve never looked liked that before or never will again. I could feel people looking at me in shock at how I’d let myself go. I was always in great shape and always took care of myself.
Then over a year I hit the bottle and if I’m honest I was a borderline alcoholic, I did it to take the pain away… It doesn’t help it makes things worse and it’s not the answer!
Things truly spiraled out of control and I lost everything…I even stupidly tried to end things more than once…
Lots of things happened to put me in that place and I don’t hate or blame anyone but me for it happening.
I actually repulsed myself and on New Years I promised myself and didn’t tell anyone of my goal. I was gonna get back to me and try hit 16 stone by my birthday on the 28th of September… guess what?… A couple of months ago I hit 16 stone from nearly 21 and a half stone. I’m nowhere near where I want to be mentally but physically I’m getting there and I am very proud!
I’m just doing my thing on my own starting out in life from scratch,
I would absolutely talk to anyone friend or stranger if they needed my help and the offer will always be there, @ben_shortman”
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