“I’ve suffered from various mental illnesses my entire young adult-adult life. I’ve had anorexia, body dysmorphia, depression and borderline personality disorder.
In the picture on the left, I was starving. I was consumed by anorexia, body dysmorphia, self-loathing and severe depression.
I spent 4 years in a fairly abusive and crap relationship, I had awful self-esteem and I avoided dealing with it by turning my control into food. I was obsessed, to say the least, and I spent every second thinking and calculating calories and exercising. It stopped being about the way I looked and quickly became a way I could destroy myself and I did. I needed to be taken to results in the hospital and have life-saving treatment. I spent 3-4 weeks hospitalised and went on to outpatient care.
Anorexia quickly turned into binge eating and I used that to feed my depression and again, take away any self-esteem I had left. I would binge eat over 9,000 calories in one sitting and then lay in bed with guilt. I was lost, gaining a lot of weight and not coping.
The picture on the right is a year after my baby boy was born. Look at how much happier I am! 4 dress sizes bigger and happier than I’ve ever been in my own skin.
Is my relationship with food still awful? Yup and my depression/body dysmorphia are still ripe but I’m learning and I’m progressing each day.
I want you to know you’re not alone, we all struggle and we all have our issues. Recovery from any mental illness is possible, I promise.
With the help of this account and you lovely bunch I can and will have a wonderful life filled with positivity and happiness 😊😊 ”
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