“For one-third of my life, I have suffered from chronic depression, and for so long I allowed myself to live under this dark cloud and allowed it to completely take control of me.
I hid from the rest of the world and gave into drugs as a means of numbing my pain, without ever understanding what was actually wrong with me. I’d lie to everybody that questioned my motives; trying to convince myself as well as everyone else that I was okay. But, I wasn’t. I was just falling deeper and deeper into that dark hole until I reached rock bottom.
I felt I had no choice but to take my own life so that all the hurting would stop. But, I was wrong. I soon realised that in doing this I would only hurt my friends and family, and they did not deserve that. They deserve the man that they knew I was capable of being.
So, I started to write down all of my thoughts in the hope of gaining some clarity on why I was where I was. This absolutely changed my life for the better. I was able to free my mind of all the negative thoughts; welcoming positivity back into my life as well as allowing myself to deconstruct my thoughts on paper; gaining that understanding I so desperately needed. As I continued writing, I learnt more and more about myself and how to maintain a way of living that I had been robbing myself of.
I have now published my story in hope that it brings clarity and understanding of what it’s like to live with depression, and also to let everyone know that they always have a choice of living a better life. There is always someone there to help. I have now dedicated my life to helping others rise from the depths of depression and take control of the life they truly deserve.
My Book is titled ‘I am the Architect of my own Destruction‘. It is raw and honest and leaves no stone unturned. It is my story; starting in the darkness but resulting in triumph, and I truly believe it will help anyone who is living under the dark cloud of depression.”
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