***TRIGGER WARNING*** mentions suicide
“November 17th marked a year since I tried taking my life…. And oh boy am I thankful to be alive today.
I have been struggling with depression for the past 4 years but it was only a year ago that I decided to seek help and get my life back on track. I was in an abusive relationship last year and that is what led me to my breaking point. I went through one of the toughest times in my life.
I stopped going to class which ultimately led me to drop out of my dream school and moving back with my parents. I really thought I had lost it all. But in reality my life was about to begin again.
Once I moved back home I started attending therapy two times a week and seeing a psychiatrist. As many people, I was entirely against taking medication because of the stigma I would attract.
I am currently trying my third medication because the first two gave me terrible side effects. It has definitely been a roller-coaster and every day I struggle to get better. I am currently working full time and trying to get back into school but every day I struggle to just get out of bed.
But it gets better, life gets better, relationships, work, school, everything. This is something I remind myself every day, specially on those days when it seems like the world is caving in. I am slowly learning to seek help when needed, to take days off even if I don’t want to, to stay in bed a little longer if I need to but most importantly I’m learning that it’s OK not to be OK.
I got a tattoo to remind myself that it is not my time to go, ‘Heaven Can Wait’.”
You can follow Ana’s healing journey on instagram.