From an early age I have felt unhappy with my life. Growing up, I was bullied which led to me skipping classes at school, feeling unable to talk to anyone about it, which led to a lot of criticism towards me. Family issues have been a big contributor to my mental health. At around the age of 15 I became severely depressed.
I kept this to myself because I felt that talking to someone would only make things worse, this made me feel isolated for a very long time. When my parents found out about this I felt rejected as they didn’t give me the support I needed. At the age of 15 I also had my first serious relationship which lasted until I was 17. The relationship was very negative and only aided to the contributors towards my mental health and I became very suicidal. I visited the GP about my mental health although I didn’t really want to speak to a stranger about it because I felt uncomfortable. When speaking to the doctor I felt like they weren’t really listening to me and just referred me to talking therapy, which for me – wasn’t the best option. Even so, I didn’t get a letter back until 6 months later. After all the negative responses and lack of understanding towards my mental health I decided to keep my feelings to myself.
At the age of 17 I became very suicidal again, and this was the scariest part of my life. I wanted to die, but had conflicting thoughts – what if this doesn’t work? What if there was something incredible planned for my life? Since this point of my life I have tried to keep myself in a more positive mindset. I have not seen a therapist or gone on medication as I think that is not personally for me. I believe that my mindset is the most impactful asset. That night has made me look at everything in a different way. For most of my life I have let my mental health hold me back, but now I am using it to help me. I have always wanted to use my art to help others – whether that be through a message or by donating money in the future. As mental health has affected me for a lot of my life, I want to use it in a positive way to help others. As well as looking at other important social issues, I want to use my art to stop stigmas attached to mental health and I want to reflect my own experiences in my art to help others.
My mental health is an issue I still have to face everyday, and although I now have a positive outlook on life, some days are a struggle. I am sharing my experience to help others, please help me make a difference. Please support and share my work, comment, like, show my work to charities and if you are a charity – get in touch. 1 in 3 of us will suffer from mental health issues and we will all be affected by mental health in one way or another. It is time this changed.